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Why Am I Still Here, I Never Learn

by sasha samara

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1.
Problems 03:46
INTRO: Try as I may, I can’t fix you I’ll keep falling short My love is just a band-aid peeling off VERSE 1: I am in control of how I feel You are in control of what you think is real And I am in control of if I stay, I want to but I know you’ll never change PRE CHORUS 1: Point it out, and brush it off, You have had enough Of my worries, of my doubts, These walls ain’t coming down CHORUS: Try as I may, I can’t fix you I’ll keep falling short My love is just a band-aid peeling off Actions fail you, your talk is cheap Still I let you run back to me, And I hold your problems until they fall asleep VERSE 2: You are in control of what you see, But you shut the console down and you won’t speak Something else takes over in your head, It brings me down and follows us to bed Why am I still here? I never learn You cannot heal a boy who thinks that he deserves to burn PRE CHORUS 2: Point it out, won’t see it through, Still I’m in love with you, Push me out and make me cry, There’s nothing left inside CHORUS: Try as I may, I can’t fix you I’ll keep falling short My love is just a band-aid peeling off Actions fail you, your talk is cheap Still I let you run back to me, And I hold your problems until they fall asleep BRIDGE: I’ll call it out and call it off, I have had enough Of your worries of your doubts, I tried to break them down, Down But my love just a band-aid peeling off CHORUS: Actions fail you, your talk is cheap And I’ve been letting you run back to me, And I hold your problems until they fall asleep Actions fail you, your talk is cheap Still I let you run back to me, And I hold your problems until they fall asleep
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Sobering Up 02:23
VERSE 1; I need a 12 step program For getting over you I let you back into my life but I want rid of you You tempt me like the devil, but my desert days are done Know you’ll get by without me, oh I know you’ll have you’re fun PRE CHORUS: and it’s hard to shake, it’s a pattern two years in the making so it’s hard to break but I’m letting you go CHORUS: Your loving is a stiff drink it’s been a year I’m still hungover your love is like a poison it’s killing me but I’ve gotta taste for it I gotta flush you out, better drink a lot water take some pain killers and feel better in the morning Your loving is addictive but I’m sobering up VERSE 2: You think that this time will be just like times before when I say “you hurt me baby” but still come back for more but I’m growing stronger daily my heart has toughened up you turn around and expect to see me there but I have enough PRE CHORUS and it’s hard to shake, it’s a pattern two years in the making so it’s hard to break but I’m letting you go CHORUS Your loving is a stiff drink it’s been a year I’m still hungover your love is like a poison it’s killing me but I’ve gotta taste for it I gotta flush you out, better drink a lot water take some pain killers and feel better in the morning Your loving is addictive but I’m sobering up
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VERSE 1: You don’t have ask Feel free to assume That you can come a little a closer I don’t mind being next to you You wrap your arm around me you feel me hesitate cause it’s all too familiar when you say my name PRE CHORUS 1: you used to breathe it out, like a prayer and now we sit in silence with your hands in my hair I know it’s not platonic, you’re not just being nice barely fending off these feelings that we’re trying to fight CHORUS: You got your claws deep under my skin and I know I shouldn’t be letting you in but our souls are tied, it’s a knee jerk reaction a losing fight against chemical attraction You, got your claws deep under my skin VERSE 2: It’s gets a little fun Cause we know that’s wrong As we get on like lovers And string each other along You cross another boundary, And I will do the same, same, same unbearable tension, I let it fall apart again PRE CHORUS 2: I wanna breathe you in, it’s my prayer and now we sit in silence but we don’t wanna stay there too comfortable and easy, i need to get away I’m telling you to go, but I’d rather you stayed CHORUS You got your claws deep under my skin and I know I shouldn’t be letting you in but our souls are tied, it’s a knee jerk reaction a losing fight against chemical attraction You, got your claws deep under my skin BRIDGE: I don’t know where you stand, And you don’t know what to do with your hands Friends ask me if we’re back together And I say no but I don’t say never I know that I should stop, You’re poison and I should be giving you up But I won’t sober up just yet - Still I know how this goes, I know how it ends I know I should let you go, I know, I know, but CHORUS You got your claws deep under my skin and I know I shouldn’t be letting you in but our souls are tied, it’s a knee jerk reaction a losing fight against chemical attraction You, got your claws deep under my skin
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VERSE 1: You know me too well, You pull my strings until they snap, strings until they snap. You know me too well, Take my hand and I will fall into your trap PRE CHORUS 1: You feel empty, And I’m just a slave to my empathy Draw blood, you’re hell bent I’ll wrap myself around your wounds to bind them CHORUS: Broken vessel, I’ll draw you close to me Cracked and splintered, But I only see what I choose to see. Omit your sin and malice, My downfall is my forgiveness Broken vessel Drain the heart of me, I give it all too willingly VERSE 2: You make it unclear, Tell me trauma, tell me lust, you shouldn’t, but you must I become what I fear, Slowly slowly you are winning back my trust PRE CHORUS 2: You feel empty, And I’m just a slave to my empathy Draw blood, you cry out Would it make your burdens less if they were mine now? CHORUS: Broken vessel, I’ll draw you close to me Cracked and splintered, But I only see what I choose to see. Omit your sin and malice, My downfall is my forgiveness Broken vessel Drain the heart of me, I give it all too willingly BRIDGE: You feel empty, I’ll pour myself out but there‘s not enough of me Draw blood, might follow through I have to pull away, my love won’t save you You CHORUS: Broken vessel, I’ll draw you close to me Cracked and splintered, But I only see what I choose to see. Omit your sin and malice, My downfall is my forgiveness Broken vessel Drain the heart of me, I give it all too willingly

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my debut EP. written with love by sasha samara, produced with care by Si Francis, and mixed to perfection by Matt Weir. An all encompassing journey through the depths of heartbreak, longing and defiant joy.

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released May 25, 2023

written by sasha samara
produced by Si Francis
Mixed by Matt Weir
Mastered by Glenn Thomas
Additional musical contributions from Matt Evans (Piano), Matty Burke (Guitar) and Jamie Hewitt (drums).

Supported by ACNI. Special thanks to my family, my dog and my Sam.

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sasha samara Belfast, UK

sasha samara is an alt-pop artist from Belfast, writing emotionally available music that'll make you feel your feelings.

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